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July 31 Hackers Unite!
Canadian ISPs Plan Net Censorship Now I don't know how much truth is behind this but if there is event just an inkling of truth to it then we've got some problems. Most people I've mentioned this to have already stated to me that "It won't happen, people won't let it" But my respons is "It will. Why? Because it's all about big business and the almighty dollar. And the fact that you completely disregard the article and pass it off as nonsense only makes it more likely to happen. why? because you already have made up your mind to believe it won't happen which means you won't make any concious decision to try and stop it, which makes you a part of the problem" Coincidentally the whole ISP net cencorship perfectly coincides with the North American Union of 2012. Which of course is another one of those, "It won't happen" but wake the fuck up and smell the coffee, it's happening right under your nose, so close you can't even fucking see it! Happy or depressed?Strange.... You know how like sometimes to do something you have to feel a certain way about it?
So my issue is this.... right now i'm in a fairly stable state of mind, nothing really to complain about in life, everything is pretty good, couldn't ask for more... and to be honest every day i walk around with my head held high and proud for reasons that are my own.
anyways so I guess what I'm trying to say is I'm happy.
which is killing my writing career. lol, most of the stories I write are darker, more gritty, real if you will, not some fucking rainbow and sugar kisses fairy tale shit.
to get into that state of mind, As a writer you've really gotta get yourself into some pretty deep holes sometimes.
Just like I couldn't write a comedy after having a relative die, my girl friend leave me and my cat run away now could I? most likely not. I'd probably kill myself instead.
The point is states of mind.
To get yourself into a proper mind set to write a specific character is harder than it seems. After all you're writing it.. you essentially are the character, it's very involving actually.
so here I am with a happy little state of mind while I'm supposed to be writing a dark, gritty, depressed, hates life and people type character.... it's not working out...
to be honest I could revert into some kind of dark depressing mind set but I really don't want to... I'm enjoying being happy right now.
And I am a person who will do it to the fullest extent, I will walk around head low, disinterested, unshaven and sour for a week if I had to just to get into the right mind set, to create something that feels real.
Are you ready for more honesty? This is probably... the first time in a long long time where I feel like... like I'm happy, like things are ok... which is very uncharacteristic of me. Strange feelings people...
so basically I'm trying to work some kind of balancing act where I am how I am in a natural state which at the moment is happy all the while trying to become nasty and unforgiving at a moments notice. Very two-faced, schizophrenic type shit, which really can't be healthy can it?
maybe I should just try to write something more light hearted? No, that'd be stupid. After all it's sex, violence and special effects that sell in todays world. July 29 Idiots with money
So Branson is one of those billionaires who thinks they're doing something good with their money. After all he's totally on the band wagon for saving the environment with his whole "flick off" bullshit.
so let me ask you this...
You spend a few million dollars to jump start a cause to save the planet from all kinds of pollution and other such nasty things.
So then after that you spend another few million dollars to send "rich mother fucking asshole" at $200,000 a pop to send them on a fucking custom made rocket ship for sub orbital flights.... what the fuck are you thinking?
how does sending people on orbital flights, burning thousands of millions of rocket fuel help save the environment?
You aren't even supposed to idle your car for more than 2 minutes but yet here Branson is sending people on vacation on sub orbital flights? Thanks the Ozone likes that.
This is the exact bullshit I was talking about last week with some people, just take all that money you put into saving the environment and suborbital vacations and put that all into the creation of a perpetual motion machine... that'd save the fucking world!
The last thing I want to mention Nas vs Fox.
And the only thing I have to say about that is Nas is right. Fox is not only racist, but perhaps the absolute worst news cast there is on television period. July 28 Q: What do you call a 1000 lawyers buried up to their necks in sand?A: Not enough sand. OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooooooooooooooooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! SNAP!
ok, so I spent a night this weekend with some law students from Queens and all I have to say is what a bunch of losers. lol.
I dunno, I found them very condescending and boring, in fact some of the most boring conversations I've ever heard. I can only hope that not all lawyers from Queens or lawyers in general are like that but somehow i know they are, much like how business cats from any school are pretty much bred from the same wolf.
So here I thought that perhaps I might be able to learn something from these so called "intellectuals" after all they're law school heads, they're part of that like... 2% which supposedly actually matter much like doctors, teachers and other "intellectual professions".
Now I'm not saying they're assholes or anything (even tho they kind of are) but all I'm saying is they're so conceited, self-absorbed. As if I really care how your university experience was like, or what kind of dead end jobs you've worked before.
That's what's so pathetic.
When you meet someone for the first time how do you get to know them?
Personally I like to know about them, what interests them, kinds of music they listen to or movies they watch, the fun shit.
I think you can tell a world about someone through their interests rather than what they've done or where they've been.
When the lawyer talks to me it's like they're trying to fucking scout me out for their firm...
so are you in school?
oh you graduated, how were your grades?
what'd you take? oh yeah i've done a little of that.
I used to work shitty jobs in fact I used to work 4 at once.
what are your plans for the future?
so and so is going to have great opportunities soon...
Are you kidding me? You're trying to figure me out by guaging my successes and failures? Measure me up by your intellectual standards? You shoulda seen it when I said, "Graduated? oh no, I didn't graduate. I decided I was finished" the look on their faces was priceless, as if I just pulled a rabbit out of my asshole.
They're so fucking robotic! They're opinions are that of the average wannabe "elitist" hipster.
Imagine the look on a lawyers face when you tell them that your political outlook is that of an anarchist. It's like you're an alien from another planet. They suddenly spout so much self rightious shit out of their mouths it makes their assholes look useless. It's like they think they're the law, it maybe the cops who catch us but it's up to them to put us away. They're so self rightious, i can't say that enough, "if you don't believe in the law then you don't believe in justice or freedom" give me a fucking break. I know you don't know what freedom really means, you fucking muppet!
These guys are so fucked in the head, they're gonna be great lawyers. They're already so deeply convinced that this system is the only system, they'll never be disillusioned by the bullshit which is law, how could anyone lose faith in justice when the road is paved with $1000 bills? July 23 Me hablar Espanol un pocoIt's been about a week and my experiment with language has come to an end. I have not learned Spanish yet... well I have learned some but not enough to keep up a full conversation with someone. I think it'd take me about 3 months to become fluent in Spanish. I say it's worth it, so I'll continue to learn but at a slower pace as I need to get back to writing.
The snag I'm in now though is trying to develope the story.
I'd say I have atleast a dozen good ideas I just don't know which to begin...
... Actually I'd say I have a dozen starts but don't know which one to finish.
It's not writer's block, it's writers indecision I suffer from.
I can't decide weather to finish the stories I want to or finish the ones with the best chance of commercial success. I also don't want to force myself to do anything I don't want to do, that's how you get sloppy writing. Which makes me think I've got a dozen ideas all of which I don't really want to write right now.... pathetic really. But at the same time I do want to write them as the ideas behind them are brilliant.
You know there are actually sites/people that'll write stories for you? all you have to do is give them your idea and then they help you develop it then THEY write it for you. BULLSHIT! How can you take pride in your work knowing it's not even your work? all you did was come up with an idea then feed it through the machine.... I wouldn't be surprised if that's probably how most Hollywood scripts are written July 22 To be or not to be...I was having a drunken discussion last friday with a brother of mine, and we were discussing who's side is winning.
His side is the establishment
mine is the rebellion.
He asks me if I'm smart, I don't know. He says he's smart, he's done an IQ test. I say I think I'm smart and he says he thinks I am too.
I was telling him how awful and easily my side gets dominated by his.
He was trying to convince me that my side was better than that, he could not accept how badly my side is losing.
I told him how we give up easily, how his side beats us at a game of attrition.
My side can only play their game or not and their game is the path of least resistance. By the time you finish high school and get to university, you're on the fences. After university, your ass backwards in debt, 3-5 years older, give up the mohawk or baggy pants to pursue a career and by then you're indoctrinated into their system.
If you don't go to school, you end up working minimum wage, in jail or on the streets.
He tells me my side is stronger than I think and holds a powerful presence. He says people he works with, the high rolling business men are threatened by our presence.
I agree with that notion as I've seen it, I've felt it. When one of them gets on the bus or subway, they avoid people like me.
I ask why that is and he says because we represent everything they are not.
He makes a six figure salary, I make a low end five figures. He can afford the luxuries I only dream of. I say he's 100x better off than I am, financial security is one of the most imporatant things in the world.
He confesses that he hates what he does, that he feels he's sold his soul for money. I agree but don't push him about it.
He asks me who our last hero was and for once I'm speechless. I'm not sure. No one's ever asked that to me before. I take a moment to think then reply, MLK.
He laughs and says I'm not black. I agree with his statement as I am not. so he follows up with so then why MLK?
I say Malcom was all about reperations for blacks, but MLK was beyond that. MLK wasn't barking up the civil rights tree but rather he was barking up the human rights tree, which is beyond race and religion.
He says my side is full of soldiers, I agree, I am one of them and tell him that we need all the soldiers we can get. He goes on to say that soldiers won't help, what my side needs is leaders and I reply that our leaders get shot, discredited or shipped off to Guantanamo.
So he asks me why? why fight? take the path of least resistance. If i know my side cannot win why try? Switch sides.
I say it's not about winning or losing.
I confess not a day goes by I don't think about it, going back to school, take a few business courses and learn about Milton Friedman, the Chicago boys, Laissez-faire capitalism, the Fed, Micro and Macro, and quantitative methods of calculations. I think about the life I could have had, an easier life, a hallow life. In many ways I envy him and his financial freedom in this world where wealth dictates your status, in a world where wealth provides physical freedom. While I sit and struggle to pay off student loans for the next 5 years he's paid them off just after one year.
His life is so much easier in many ways but life is really dictated through philosophy and principles.
I tell him every morning I wake up and look at myself in the mirror and smile, how I can hold my head up high because of what I do, what I am, what I stand for. I wait for him to tell me the same but he doesn't. For all the security he has, he's still just a slave to corporate dress codes and conducts in which he cannot stray from. His grasp at an identity falls squarely on the way he gels his hair... I suddenly feel sorry for him.
I think of Plato's Symposium and recite my favourite passage for him,
"Whenever I discuss philosophy or listen to other do so, I enjoy it enormously but whenever I hear other discussions especially that of rich business men like yourself, I get bored and feel sorry for you and your friends, because you think you're doing something important, when you're not. Perhaps you regard me as a failure, and I think you are right. But I don't think you are a failure, I know you are."
He laughs and says, being a philosopher doesn't pay in this day and age and I agree so I tell him the only difference between him and I is our type of freedom.
He may have financial freedom but I have spiritual freedom and I give him Kierkegaard's metaphor of Adam and the tree of knowledge.
Doing what you must to prove that you are free even if it will destroy you. You must take a leap of faith and stop living as a reaction to circumstances and start living as a force for what you say should be.
In the end we agree that when he's rich, I'll be able to sleep on his couch. By this time it was almost 6am and we ended with the notion that this conversation will continue another time but also on the simple note that is, the truest philosophy is to each his own. July 21 Rock the Bells 2008The Set List
Hosts: Super Natural and Scratch
Kidz in the hall
Jay Electronica
The Cool Kids
Murs
The Pharcyde
De La Soul
Rakim with Kid Capri
DJ Green Lantern
Mos Def
Meth and Red
Nas
A Tribe Called Quest
Doors opened at 11am.
I was there at around 11:30.
We sat in the car for a bit eating breakfast as we watched other people arrive.
The first thing I noticed was a little tent set up in the parking lot, and maybe about 5 dudes in there with about 3-4 bottles of liquor getting drunk... it's 11:30am for Gods sake! Anyways after eating breakfast, we decided to join the party so we popped open a bottle of Alize and poured that into some coke. Yes, I know drinking that early in the morning can only mean you're an alcoholic but really it's Alize... it's like drinking fruit punch, where as those other dudes were drinking what I believed to be vodka and gin.
Anyways we also smoked a joint for good measure. After that we head to the venue @ Arrow Hall.
No line up at the time we entered so that was good. We walked in and ofcourse entered the standard position for search. And I have to say that it was the most relaxed search I've ever been in. I could have snuck a 9mm under my hat!
So past the shabby search team and we're into the venue. We did a quick lap around the place, checking out the food prices $3 for a bottle of water.
There was another huge line up for wristbands, for those drinking even tho the bar area didn't open for another hour or so. We decided to skip that line up and head to the stage to get a good spot in the crowd, and as we pushed our way through the thong of people, we finally got a decent spot up front.
First act, Kidz in the hall. Not a bad set, good opening act actually. I have nothing bad to say about their set.
shit, I can't remember if the cool kids or Jay electronic was up next.... anyways to make it quick.
The cool Kids put on a decent set too but I didn't really like them, I thought their rhymes were weak but the crowd seemed to like them.
Jay Electronic did a hype set, with his stick scepter of hip hop, lol. He threw that out into the crowd a few times and had some fun with it. There was some technical diffuculties with one of his mics so he threw that into the crowd too.
Super Natural and Scratch.... what can I say about the hosts with the most? Stole the whole fucking show. Scratch was killing it, seeing him live was a mind opener but Super Natural fucking killed it. He had so many rhymes and did so many free styles... there was a lot of sound issues at the show which made Natural do lots of freestlyes, he busted some of the sickest shit I've ever heard
At one point Super Natural had people throwing things onto the stage and Super busting them into his free style like an episode of "who's line is it anyways?" everything from shirts to joints to vest and hats. He killed it. After Jay threw the mic out into the crowd Super Natural had to get it back, and offered to smoke whoever got the mic 4 joints lol, but in the end the guy gave the mic back and passed on the joints.
Speaking of joints, it was like a fucking free for all of marijuana smoking. It seemed like the whole fucking crowd including me was smoking the jane. Even Super Natural hit a fucking blunt on stage. It seemed like no one gave a fuck, like how the laws just aren't enforced on the Marijuana March in toronto or how they suspended the drugs laws for woodstock and shit. Hell, I was watching some guy smoking out of a pipe! like WTF? you know?
Murs was on next.... his DJ is in jail so he played a solo set. He still rocked hard tho, lots of energy in him.
The Pharcyde was on next, I love those guys, their set was great. Rakim was supposed to be next, but then there was some problem and he didn't come out thus began De La Soul's set instead. They killed it too, it was like each act just got better and better. After De La Soul, we got Rakim, the god. His set was totally disrespected. Kid Capri who wasn't even on the bill was just there and tried to DJ his set but the fucking sound crew fucked him and the set was cut short and Rakim seemed pissed and yeah, it was just a shame that a legend had to suffer some bullshit sound problems. After Rakim DJ green Lantern was on the mix, busting all the big jams everyone loves. Wasn't nothing wrong with that. After him came Mos Def. Mos Def was pretty good, he didn't do too much of his own music and just played out some old school Reggea joints. I enjoyed his set too Mos Def is a cool guy. Red and Meth pretty much set the bar that night. When Red and Meth hit the stage, the place went buck! M-E-T-H-O-D MAN! obviously Meth was toking on some of that weed. They also did a lot of crowd surfing and water tossing to the crowd which the crowd loved.
The amount of Wu-tang fans there... everybody. lol, the place just went on fire. Meth and Red had some much intensity. They're perfect hype men. They also plugged their new movie... how high 2...lol, I dunno if that's a joke or what but what the fuck I guess I'll see it. "Study high, take the test high, get high marks" After that Nasty Nas. He picked up exactly where Red and Meth left off. As soon as Nas hit the stage the whole crowd fucking rushed the show. At that point I was in the middle of it all, probably 10 feet away from the stage or less. When Nas his the stage.... suddenly I was in this mess of people only like 5 feet away from the stage.
Nas played everything I wanted to hear. From N.Y state of mind to fucking got yourself a gun to heroes. Once Nas was done, a bunch of people started to leave. I thought it was kind of a diss to Tribe, since they're the headliner. I guess by that time most people were heading off to Nas' after party at Circa. After the longest like... 20 minute wait of my life, been standing on my feet for almost 12 hours, haven't had a drink since that Alize and coke at 11:30am and hadn't eaten since the same time and about 3 joints deep, I was dying but I knew if I left the spot I was in, I'd never be able to get back there and shit the only reason I was there was for Tribe so I couldn't leave. And when A Tribe called Quest hit the stage it was on. They rocked the whole fucking place. It was a completly different vibe. From Red to Meth to Nas, the intensity stayed high like the roof of the place was gonna blow right the fuck off, but then when A Tribe called Quest was out it felt like, the crowd was gonna dance and stomp through the ground
A Tribe Called Quest put on one hell of a show. Played all my favourite songs. Ain't got nothing bad to say about them. The highlights of the night were Red and Meth, Nas, A tribe called Quest and surprisingly Super Natural and DJ Scratch, killed it like it's never been killed. The night ended around 11, 12 hours of hip hop... what a fucking show. Lastly... I was going to take pictures and shit... but I could bring myself to do it. like... ok, sure pictures are nice to show other people and keep as a constant reminder, blah, blah, blah. When you're at a concert and an act comes on stage, I like to see hands up waving like you just don't care, or a fist or peace or middle finger, whatever you want... the last thing I want to see which I saw plenty of was, an Act coming out on stage then fucking dozens of cell phone's up in the air trying to take pictures. Get the fuck outta here, you think you're fucking 2.3 mega pixel camera is gonna get a good shot? If you're gonna take pictures, sneak in a fucking real camera like the guys who made these youtube videos. lol, hell with how relaxed security was at this show you could have snuck in a bloody tripod. Last thing to add is, the crowd was fucking great. A good mixed group, whites, blacks, asians, ect and of all ages, Toronto is hip hop, we do it all for the love. No fights, no throwing of empty water bottles or anything like that, just some good old fashion hip hop. Hip Hop is all about, Peace, love, unity and having fun. July 17 Hope OBAMA HOPE, 2008 by Shepard Fairey
What I want to see is Obama win the presidential election. Have the people think that this is the new era, a new world order if you will for change, peace and progress. Then I want to see Obama do absolutely nothing for the middle and lower class, have Obama become the slave of the corporations and not uphold the promises he said he would and become just a shell of a human being. And as soon as the shit hits the fan and the people realize Obama is being pimped by the corporate fat cats like the rest of the government... I want to see the people rise up and let the revolution begin. July 16 If I had a million dollars, I'd buy me some cocaine, Haven't you always wanted some Cocaine?that's some hilarious shit right there.
Anyways....
Writers block. what a horrible thing.
When a mind can no longer process, what good is it?
Fortunetly free writes are free flowing, no beginnings, middles or ends. It's really a great warm up for any writer like a singer who warms up their vocal cords with scales.
I normally like to keep up with current events and all that but sometimes the news is to depressing to look at.
Tell me what's going on and I'll tell you what's going on.
Although I am a writer, I have yet to complete a full length feature that I'm comfortable with. I often wonder how strick the movie industry is in regards to scripts, like having "action beats" every ten pages. I've always like to go against the grain, everybody loves the underdog right?
Comic movies seem big these days, perhaps I should try my hand at that... although aren't people sick of comic movies yet?
Hell, it's like how many more Saw movies can they really bloody make, aren't peoploe tired of that bullshit?
In my opinion a comic movie should be done like a comic book. Using a story arc.
normally comics use a 6 or 12 shot story arc.
and the comic movie should encompass 3 or 6 shot arcs like lord of the rings or Starwars.
but more like lord of the rings in the sense that Starwars episodes 4-6 can all be watched as stand alone movies. Each one has a beginning middle and end.
where as lord of the rings needs to be watched in order as the first movie can be considered the beginning, the second the middle and the last the end.
So comic movies should be shot in trilogy formats, all at the same time and released in a single year, so viewers remember the story.
By doing that and using QUALITY scripts, they'll make tons of money. Instead of pissing it away making shitty and shittier comic movies.
fantastic four? daredevil? cat woman? ghost rider? come the fuck on.... it's like they aren't even trying... July 15 Me hablar Espanol un pocoWhat makes Chomsky so compelling? Most would say his political philosophies but isn't it really just political jargon?
What makes Chomsky so interesting to me is the way he puts thoughts and ideas together. Many of the things he cites are historical facts but the way he presents them, in his Chomskian manner often makes more out of the facts than what is actually there.
And how does he do it?
He's a bloody master linguist that's how!
The study of language is quite interesting.
My experiment this week is to for go my usual writing schedule to try and learn spanish.
why? well... writers block... well not really... call it writers indecision. Actually I think Spanish is a beautiful language too.
So far so good on the spanish front. Spanish is very much like english or french, it's actually fairly easy to understand. If all goes well then I will re-familiarize myself with french and cantonese, although chinese is so not like english at all. Perhaps I'll also learn Swahili, lol.
I also think that knowing multiple languages helps the writing process.
How?
I'm not really sure yet, lol. I'm thinking more in terms of dialect, how sentences are formed and how inflections are used and so on. July 14 Toothpaste for DinnerJuly 11 We do it all for the love y'allThere ain't nothing that feels better than creating something from nothing. Be it a painting, a poem, a story, or sculpture, creating something from nothing give you this strange feeling inside like... you're a God or something.
So with that being said I have completed another short story. It's about love and loss.
It's only the first draft but still it's nice to know it's done. The more time you put into something the better it feels when all is said and done.
I will post it here but not yet, not now. Because intellectual property is kind of like... up in the air, perhaps I am being paranoid, perhaps I am being safe.
The fact of the matter is when one is trying to produce a script into a movie, it needs to be copy written.
So I will have to contact the WGA again and submit this script before I will be posting it here.
Anyways, thanks to all those who helped me with the script.
Thanks for your opinions and philosophies about love and I will be sending out a first draft to those who sent me their personal responses sooner rather than later.
And of course once the script is copy written then I will perhaps post it here for all to see and read.
July 09 Yoko Ono's 'Imagine Peace' slated for Nuit BlancheTHE CANADIAN PRESS Stumbling zombies, a prison chapel waterfall and Yoko Ono's "Imagine Peace" project are among the art installations coming to Toronto's Nuit Blanche festival this fall. The all-night festival of contemporary art will feature dozens of free displays running from sunset Oct. 4 to sunrise Oct. 5. Organizers say it will include Ono's "Imagine Peace" project, a three-part interactive display based on the sentiments of the late Beatle John Lennon's song "Imagine." One part of the display is called "Wish Tree," and it will invite visitors to write a wish on a piece of paper and tie it to the branch of a tree. Other events include "Zombies in Condoland," in which hundreds of people dressed as zombies will take over a downtown parking lot and park, with viewers encouraged to come dressed for the part. Artists will also transform city hall into "the world's largest interactive computer screen," set up a three-storey waterfall to skim the outside of a former prison chapel and invade the financial district with nouveau cabaret.
Nuit blanche kicked ass last year, some wicked bas ass exhibits. soooooooo, the only question left to ask is, Who wants to be a zombie for a night?
July 08 I had a dream....You know how some people say that dreams are like... I dunno, subconscious desires and what not?
How dreams should be analyzed and how much you can learn from them and this and that.... well I dunno... it could be credible but really I have no fucking idea.
The other night I had a dream...
I was the newly crowned ruler of Iraq.
My inagural speech started with declaring a Jihad on any country capitalist or communist who interferes with my rule.
I declare the IMF and the World Bank the official enemies of the state.
All privitized companies return to the people and I declare a New World Order, a true democracy.
The people trust me as if I were a prophet, perhaps Mohammed himself.
I invite peoples from all around the world to come and live in my new paradise.
We have peace, stability, weapons, oil, and most importantly we have the people.
I become demonized by the Western Media but still people come to live in peace.
A year or so into my term and no other country in the world, no other country in the history of the world has ever had such a radical turn in all aspects of society for the better from economics to political and social reforms.
And on the anniversary or some important date I give another proud speech about all the progress we've made and I tell the people they're the ones responsible for the reform, the power is in them not me, I'm just a figure head but before I get to that part I'm hit by a bullet and wake up.
I know you're asking yourself "how the hell did he make peace in Iraq" and my only response is, "It's a dream" |
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